All my life i have never chased after one person for the reason of wanting to take care of them...and now i do that to this one girl who now just would not understand what i am trying to tell her...Its not that i want her to be with me again for the sake of the fun we had for the two years back..its not the real reason..i try to tell her the real reason but she just would not let me finish my sentence...my say of things...How am i supposed to tell her that it is my responsibility for whatever she does and whatever can happen to her...she just don't understand at all...
Why do girls are such stubborn human beings that just can't listen to what we men trying to tell them...well...at least some men have the curtosy to take care of them...only some men!!! don't you understand that!!! other guys would think..the hell with it...she's over...she's not with me now...why do i give a F**k bout her...but i am not like that ***...I'm not...I care about you coz of what i did and it is totally my responsibility...come on....to think about it...you rejected me for like hundreds of times...but i kept going to you...does that means that i don't understand what you're trying to say to me?? NO!!! i do understand that you want me to just die and leave you alone...right?? hmmm if only you understand...what i feel after what have happen...if only you knew how difficult it is to stay alive every single day thinking that i am responsible for one person's life...if only you knew how it feels like hiding all your faults and pretending like you never did those things...if only you knew how ashamed i was when you embarresed me infront of so many people...if only i could tell others my side of the story...if only i could...
You can go ahead and tell stories about me to all those friends of yours...but me?? i can't even open my mouth of telling what happen in our "private life"...i can't tell your flaws to others and i just can't bear listening to others chit chatting about you...everything now happen to be a if...it seems like nothing could be done anymore...its seems that my effort of protecting you have ran off and i am getting tired of trying to sent you one message...just one...hmmm...now i could only hope and pray...and everything is under your hand...
I might live my life with misery of thinking of that everyday and just think about what if this or what if that happened...nothing you can do anymore...you made your point...losing you...hmm...never thought that it could happen...but hey...life do move on...and hope that when someday you turn back and look back at you memories...you can start to think why i do what i did all this time...wasting my time for you when i can just have a better life without you...every single thing i did when i am with you..it all planned out...just trying to sent you one little memo...but for two years...the memo never did arrive...and from now till i die...i can just think of " IF ONLY SHE KNEW..."
Why do girls are such stubborn human beings that just can't listen to what we men trying to tell them...well...at least some men have the curtosy to take care of them...only some men!!! don't you understand that!!! other guys would think..the hell with it...she's over...she's not with me now...why do i give a F**k bout her...but i am not like that ***...I'm not...I care about you coz of what i did and it is totally my responsibility...come on....to think about it...you rejected me for like hundreds of times...but i kept going to you...does that means that i don't understand what you're trying to say to me?? NO!!! i do understand that you want me to just die and leave you alone...right?? hmmm if only you understand...what i feel after what have happen...if only you knew how difficult it is to stay alive every single day thinking that i am responsible for one person's life...if only you knew how it feels like hiding all your faults and pretending like you never did those things...if only you knew how ashamed i was when you embarresed me infront of so many people...if only i could tell others my side of the story...if only i could...
You can go ahead and tell stories about me to all those friends of yours...but me?? i can't even open my mouth of telling what happen in our "private life"...i can't tell your flaws to others and i just can't bear listening to others chit chatting about you...everything now happen to be a if...it seems like nothing could be done anymore...its seems that my effort of protecting you have ran off and i am getting tired of trying to sent you one message...just one...hmmm...now i could only hope and pray...and everything is under your hand...
I might live my life with misery of thinking of that everyday and just think about what if this or what if that happened...nothing you can do anymore...you made your point...losing you...hmm...never thought that it could happen...but hey...life do move on...and hope that when someday you turn back and look back at you memories...you can start to think why i do what i did all this time...wasting my time for you when i can just have a better life without you...every single thing i did when i am with you..it all planned out...just trying to sent you one little memo...but for two years...the memo never did arrive...and from now till i die...i can just think of " IF ONLY SHE KNEW..."
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