Remembered??

Remember the time...
When i looked at you...
Saying those three words without any clue...
That you had those feelings too...

Remember when...
We laugh our heads off day and night...
Talking about things that we like...
Thinking that everything going to be alright...

Remember who...
Was the person that ran bringing umbrella to you when it rains...
Remember who...
Was so thankful that i actually came...

Remember what...
Makes us so happy being together for 2 years...
Makes us love each other heads over heels...
Makes us who we are now...

Remember where...
Was the first time we met...
Remember where...
Did we have our first kiss...

Remember???

sudah itu sudaaa

Seriously, i hate to be in love with anybody right now but feelings are just there you know..hurmmm tak tawu nak cakap ape...its just that i feel like i am wasting time with all this people but love is another way to find happiness and i want that...aduhh....blank dowh...don't know what to do anymore...can't seem to find that little tiny happiness im lookin for...

What Else Can I Do??

What else can I DO?

What else can I SAY?

I'm SPEECHLESS in my own way,

Turning from the LIGHT,

Becoming DARKER than night,

Trying to ESCAPE the REALITY of life…

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HURT in one way,

PAIN in the other,

Trying to THINK what’s best for me,

Trying to FIGURE OUT what’s best for her,

People say LOVE need to LET GO,

People say LOVE is meant to STAY…

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To whom do I LISTEN to?

To whom do I SHARE?

Alone in the corner of my EMPTY heart,

Think of what is best and what is RIGHT…

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TALKING to people like they knew,

Talking to people like they even CARE,

NOTHING seems to MATTER when you’re not there,

No one can feel what is INSIDE,

No one knows what it FEELS like…

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Thinking about how things END,

Thinking about how things can START again,

You SMILE and LAUGH,

You gave me nothing but a SIGH,

You think of me nothing but the PAST…

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I SAY Things I shouldn't have,

And TIME has past,

Things SHOULDN'T be how it is now,

Things should be how it was BEFORE,

LAUGHTER and JOY was there in my life,

HAPPINESS and a SMILE are all around…

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Laughing at my JOKES,

LAUGHING at me and you,

Laughing at a LIE that could not be HIDE,

Meaning so DEEP,

Deeper than what YOU felted,

I was falling for your TRICKS,

I was falling under you’re SPELL…

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Then you let ME go,

Like an ANIMAL waiting to die,

Like a TRASH in the bin,

Like I am NOBODY to you…

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CRY a million times,

KILL myself from the inside,

PEEL my skin off,

SEE if you cared,

See if you showed up to COMFORT me…

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Our LOVE ended in a minute,

The minute that I wouldn't have GUESSED,

The minute that my heart STARING at a knife,

The minute I NEED nothing more but your comfort…

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If I say I LOVE YOU,

You say that it’s isn't TRUE,

If I say I MISS YOU,

You say that I LIE to you…

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What else can I SAY,

What else can I DO,

Following the RULE,

That was SET by you…

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Now alone I am WAITING for an answer,

There you are laughing with joy with your TOY,

Look at me as if I DON'T care,

Look at me as if I’m just a SHADOW you once look for,

Look at me and LAUGH at my PAIN…

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You wouldn't UNDERSTAND me,

Like you USED to do,

You ERASE me from your MEMORY,

Leaving me to FLY AWAY from your LIFE…

-SEMESTER 01-

(Part01 me)

Parents sending off their kids and smiling to the sun for the beautiful morning of success that is felted by the whole family, feeling glad that their kids is off for a better education and having the chance to become a somebody when their daughter/sons grows up. The future suddenly flashes through their eyes of how life going to be after graduation.

First time of everything always makes people so excited and put a big smile on our faces. The day i registered for UiTM Malacca for the course of Communication and Media Studies was the day my life start to change day by day. The day ended and parents flew back home feeling satisfy of successfully registering their kids into university and their kids on the other hand started to feel that the struggle of life are just up ahead in life. MMS (Minggu Mesra Siswa) begins for a week to inform all the new students about the rules and regulation of being in university. Seniors shouting their heads off trying their best to entertain and letting know of whats coming up for us who are new to university.

Semester begins and life was very unusual as I have never been to class at 8pm at night and all. Doing anything was like totally new thing for me. Maybe there are a few things that I was comfortable doing but it doesn't mean that I am perfect doing it. I was elected as the class representative and I was so delighted that they gave me such an honour but it lasted for half a semester. I started to feel like I was getting bullied and I have to do most things without anybody's help. It's true that they once said that shout out if I ever needed help but at the end, no one came. Just left alone being some loser running around doing things for the class. I was then being shoved around by some seniors who took me as a "freshy" and still young to understand even the slightest things in life. I was lucky to have my sisters around to cheer me up everyday and help me feels like I am no different than the others but the crowd was a bit too big for just my sister to control. Things started to get ugly after the semester break as I start to fall in love with a girl. I was head over heels for her and started to enjoy than concentrating on my studies.

I did not regret of being with her as she was the one who kept on pushing me forward and treat me more like some her own age. University started to brighten up a little after my birthday as I realises that I do have someone now by my side to be with me when I have my ups and downs. Truthfully, happiness just last a short while. Nearing the end of semester break, we split up and I was just in shock as we had never fought and we have a blast when we were together. I broke apart at that time and as semester ends, I did not quite had a great holiday as things wasn't clear in my head of what had happened...

University

Nearly 3 years i have been in UiTM Malacca and since the beginning of university, life never been better and tend to get worst. Meeting different kind of people, different family background and different story of life to tell. Meeting up with new friends every semester and introducing ourselves to all the lecturers in the faculty.

Probably for some, university isn't a big deal for them but to me university is where you start growing up to go to the real world and life get harder and harder after university. Being pushed to skipped my teenage year was a harsh decision that i can't run from due to that if i entered school after coming back from Australia, i might get worst result for SPM and might not even have the chance to enter university.

Experience that i have during my time in this university is more than enough to prepare me to the cruelty of the outside world. People in university don't correct you if you make mistake, they show you the hard way around to solve your own problems. Want to find out about my life in university?? read on...-peace-

Memories...

Memories are things that you look back of how things could have gone better or how things could have gone worst if this or that could have had happened.

Its amazing how some people have the ability to delete those memories that aren't any use to them. How i wish life would be easier if we can just control of what we want to remember and what we don't want to. Laughing our heads off remembering of what we did that was so embarrassingly stupid, remember of the sweetest time when we had a walk with the person that we use to love, remembering those times when you cried for months because of the things that happens.

There are things that we gain from remembering them and is that we can always remember of what we did wrong or what we did right but the hard part is remembering those sweet time that you could have just wish come back in your life and just play replay over and over so that life is just perfect in so many ways.

In your view...what do you think of memories?? is it actually great that we can remember all of our sweetest time and all of our time of sorrow?? only we know the answer to that...only we feel of what we remember...

Guy...Gurl...Doesn't Matter!!

When a guys cheat, the gurls gets pissed off...When the gurls cheat, the gurls says its to see if the guy actually care....???

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When the gurls go out with a guy, the guy started throwing tentrums...When the guys go out with a gurl, the guy says "were just hanging out"...???

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When the guys is busy, the gurls tend to think that the guys are up to sumthin...

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When the gurls are busy, the gurls tend to sweet talk the guy to believe them...???

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When the gurls wear all cute, the guys will start to think that the gurl is goin on a date...

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When the guys wear all smart, the guys says that he have some important event to go to...???

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When the gurls lie...when the guys lie...people tend to keep things a secret between their partners...whether its a guy or a gurl...there are no differents between these genders...male or female...both are the same when it comes to their fault in a relationship...

There are no reason to cheat...there are no reason to lie...if you are in a relationship with someone...you wouldn't cheat...cause in the first place, its you both fall in love...whats the point of holding on to your relationship and hurting your love ones...when you are in a relationship...you wouldn't lie for your own benefit..you should lie for the goods of both parties... Love life can be a hell of a pain but you need to understand not just what you feel..but what your partners feel...

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Love is when you go ups and downs with your partner, you love them for who they are, you try to stay with them even though they have their flaws...Love isn't as hard as it seems. is no different to following rules...when in school or even at home..there are rules to be followed...same as being in love...there are rules that both party must obey to make the relationship one fun and romantic roller coaster ride...

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Obviously...hold your breath, close your eyes and think hard about things like this as you can't just pick and throw away when done...its cruelty to those who get their heart broke for no absolute reason...and if others tend to interfere...think about one thing that others don't know about you and your partners...is that....you know him/her better than anybody else and so does you partner...and that reason is enough to make calm in any situation and talk slowly...

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In conclusion,loving a person and liking a person is two different thing that need to be look out for in the future...because you might make a mistake of choosing a person and hurting him/her at the end or better yet...you get hurt yourself...history repeats itself...if you don't watch out...

WITHOUT YOU...

WITHOUT YOU...

Without you in my life,
Im like a tree in a middle of a desert,
Alone without anything around me,
Dying without water around me.

Without you in my life,
Im like a fallen star,
I dont belong here wherever i am,
Im far away from my comfort zone.

Without you in my life,
Im like the sun up above,
Waiting for myself to die slowly,
Hoping for nothing in life.

Without you in my life,
Im like a stone,
Cant move to where i want to,
Just waiting for someone to pick me up and throw me away.

Without you in my life,
Im like a house with no owner,
Everything inside me become dull and crush,
Waiting for the right time for me to shine again.

Without you in my life,
Im nothing in this world,
I cry in silence,
I laugh without a sound.

Without you in my life,

Im like a lyrics with no music,
Im just a piece of writing no one cares about,
Waiting for the music to be made.

F.A.M.I.L.Y

My FAMILY is not the most perfect family in the universe but hey..they are my life and i rather die for them than anybody else in the world...Let me introduce them to you...

My MOTHER is FATIMAH(not a real name). She is a very outgoing person and the best mother for me. She is the most hard working woman i have ever seen and she is my idol in life.

My FATHER is ABDULLAH(not a real name). Its interesting to have a talk with him as he have do many experience in life which i could learn from.

My ELDEST SISTER is LIYANA(not a real name). She is one crazy sister!! haha she have her own life even when i was still a kid. She understand her brothers and sisters inside out...

My only BROTHER, ROBERT(not a real name). He is the kind of person that love to have fun but he can be serious. With him around...our house can become one "loud" house..LOL

My MIDDLE SISTER, ALLICE(not a real name). She is different than anyone i have ever know. She is the responsible one in the family with money, chores and everything.she love to laugh at my stupid jokes..

My ONE YEAR OLDER SISTER, SELENA(not a real name). She is madly in love with her future husband obviously...hahha...she is as crazy as i am..haha...she is one bag of joy wait to be pop out of the bag!!! haha

And lastly, me...THAQIF(real name..lol). i don't know how to describe my self so...you have to ask others alrite?? hehe ..thats my family...and i love them because without them in my life..i have nobody...

So..welcome xD

3L:-Love-Life-Learn

Okay...hye again!! xp

Basically, my topic and the topic for my blog is the 3L...which you already know that its love,life, and learn...the reason of this topic is because everything in my life is related to this 3 things..every problems i have, everything i do, evolve around these 3L. Example of it would be if you fall in LOVE...then it would be part of your LIFE...and anything that you do right or wrong...you will tend to LEARN from it..simple enough for ya?? alryte then...so...that is that and i'm back to continue with my other things i want to write about..see you again yea..-end-

oLLa peOpLezz...

hye there everyone xD

Let me introduce myself...im Thaqif and im 19 this year but not that old yet...hhaha...im finishing my dip in MESSCOMM and thats all about it that you need to know bout me..anywho..welcome to my blog people!!! Not use to be doing this sorts of things but i will get the hang off this sooner or later..okay..enjoy my blog and do comments or give advice if you find anything that seems to be disturbing or isn't to you likings okay?? hope you all enjoy reading my blog..be back soon...OUT!! -end-